Some Thoughts, Questions, and Observations.
Many random items have crossed my mind over the past week, so I might as well record them.
I am not a fan of the summertime.
Even though I am not Christian, I feel as though I am at least aware of and have been exposed (both by choice and not by choice) to the basic aspects of Christianity while my Christian friends do not know anything about Hinduism or any other religion to that extent. I am not really religious, so this does not upset me or offend me personally, but it concerns me on a societal level. I have a lot of thoughts on religion / beliefs / spirituality / etc. and I will probably write a blog post about these areas at some point.
How will he know if anything happens to me? Should he know? Does he care about me anymore? Has he forgotten about me? Is he alright? I am not. I miss him and I am not sure I know what to do about it because, honestly, I cannot do anything about it.
One can only trust oneself. People may have good intentions, but no one knows one better than oneself. People can try their bests to make someone feel better, but the sad truth is while appreciated, their efforts will make the smallest dent in filling the void this person feels.
What saddens me most is the one person who can understand my current experience best is the one to whom I cannot speak.
Unfortunately, I relate too much to the song Better Now by Post Malone. The song is great, but I’m sure one would understand why I relate to it if she listens closely to the lyrics (especially from the verses). I relate too much to Mercy by Lewis Capaldi and Burning Bridges by Bea Miller as well.
Waking up naturally to the sun streaming into one’s room is a beautiful thing and I will forever treasure moments such as these.
The Twin Cities have seen quite a bit of rain recently.
A “rainy day” playlist is not a good or qualified “rainy day” playlist if it does not contain Bon Iver.
A Gopher football game is on a Friday this year and I am not sure how I feel about it.
My favorite activity to do with my family is gossiping.
Trump and Kim Jong Un shook hands for an uncomfortably long time.
I have seen a lot of elephant cruelty in the news recently and I will never understand why humans feel so entitled to animals’ lives (and other human lives).
The Minnesotan political world has become more interesting over the past week. I am excited for what is to come.
I have too much trouble sleeping.
I am becoming more comfortable with the idea of self love. That being said, I do not think it is wrong to enjoy loving someone else and experience romance.
Love is not dead.
Child deaths by lead poisoning have decreased significantly in Minnesota since the 1990s.
Netflix keeps removing every show and movie actually worth watching.
Inconveniently, free therapy appointments are not actually free.
I have become too comfortable with crying in public. Additionally, what exhausts me most is awaking to tears streaming down my face. Hopefully this does not continue for too much longer.
The only time I can escape my mind is when I am sleeping, but this makes waking up an extremely unpleasant experience (as one can determine from my previous statements).
A happy relationship does not equate to a healthy relationship, but this does not mean an an unhealthy relationship will always be unhealthy.
Although I am so grateful and have been fortunate enough to travel internationally many times, international flights (and airplanes and airports in general) make me nervous.
Mean people will always exist. Nice people will always exist too.
Rumors establishing Nick Jonas and Priyanka Chopra’s relationship have been circulating and while I am not a fan of the idea, I will always side with love and I wish them the best.
Gucci slides are priced around three hundred dollars, but so many people buy them.
I am too proud of my Spotify playlists, but I also think I am rightfully so. I will plug them for the rest of my life.
The blueberries I have eaten recently have not tasted as plump and juicy as usual.
I am not a fan of Microsoft Excel, but I am becoming more comfortable with it.
Being surrounded by people will always make me feel better. I guess I am an extrovert for a reason.
I am excited for school to begin even though we are in the midst of summer.
The people in my life are so beautiful and inspiring.
Learning to be okay with solitude is more difficult than it appears.
I have been feeling pretty empty, but this is okay because I do not have to feel otherwise if I truly do not feel it and faking it will not make anything better.
I know I am behind on creating my YouTube channel, but hopefully I’ll do so soon.
So many organizations are doing amazing work and I’m proud to be a part of one such organization.
When you’re eighty, what you will remember most while reflecting on your life are the people who stood by you throughout all of your successes and failures. This is why you should never let go of those who care about you even when things are difficult. Imagine this person standing beside you years down the road. Do not let go of that.
Money has too large of an influence on us.
I rewatched my favorite Gossip Girl episode (Season 1, Episode 13) the other day and I was reminded of one of my favorite quotes from the show (and life). “People don’t tell you who you are. You tell them.”